From now on all generations will call me blessed.

I spoke with angel.

He spoke peace

as I was troubled, favoured

troubled, favoured.

Peace.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

My love’s eyes moist, betrayal perceived

in me

who could believe

conceived

the inconceivable.

From now on all generations will call me blessed

as I carry the seed of the life of God

God's law condemns me to death.

Cannot the grace of my love

be graced to him?

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

I must leave my home

as baby grows.

Elizabeth takes me into her home.

Refuge in a home

away from home

she knows

the possible

of the impossible.

The Lord has provided for me.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

My love, God assured, has taken me into his home

with him, I am home.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Again I must leave my home

by order to stroke

the king’s ego

bearing baby’s rhythmic press on pelvis

rise and fall upon donkey.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

With pain I labour          

Where there’s no room for rest, comfort, hygiene

I deliver Life.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

I lay my baby boy in feeding trough

scratch, crusty food remains from its walls.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Shepherds tongue-tied

wide light-struck eyes

try

to describe God's glory.

With voices caught by awe

they declare my son to be Christ.

The Lord has exalted those of humble estate.

From now on all generations will call me blessed

as men steeped in wisdom

find

the prize

of their pilgrimage

my son

in whom they delight.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

I must flee my home

lest my son be killed under king’s ego.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Turtle doves two

pigeons two

all I have to offer to

he who is mighty.

At the sight of my son a man can die

a woman rejoices

proclaiming him to be redemption    

and a sword will pierce my soul also.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

For three days, distressed I search for my son

wondering why God entrusted me with his son

on finding him he responds to my distress

philosophising it to be needless

for I should have known

he’d be in his father's home.

From now on all generations will call me blessed

as we celebrate in abundance

love and wine flow.

Abundance

is in my son.

He has come.

From now on all generation will call me blessed

as my son questions who are his mother and brothers

declaring the many are his mothers and brothers.

Who wiped his tears

relished snuggles

spoon fed him?

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

With lies

they testify

cry

Crucify.

My stomach spins.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Every lash

lashing my heart.

He is bleeding

I am bleeding.

His skin torn

my heart also.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Nails pierce his hands

sword pierces my soul also.

He strains to breathe

I struggle to breathe.

The sky smothered in darkness

and I am smothered in darkness.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

Guttural groans, splatters, eyes filled with love and pain and compassion

as he hangs alone

he ensures I am not alone

and John is not alone

our belonging to each other.

From now on all generations call me blessed.

My son.

My love.

My hope.

My purpose

dead.

From now on all generations will call me blessed.

My son.

My love.

My Lord.

My Saviour.

The Bleessed Life

Mary’s Poem